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Inconceivable — Not Pregnant

F is for...

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F is for...

Hmm, it seems we are back where we started. Let’s recap, and then check some facts, and see if anything has changed. F is for fertility, which according to the dictionary means “the quality of being fertile; the ability to conceive children or young” …so basically, being able to become pregnant and deliver a baby. The flipside of which is, being infertile, or “being unable to reproduce” … so yes, opposites. Do they attract? Or do birds of a feather flock together? The world may never know. What I do know, after personal experience and a ‘lil interwebs magic, is that infertility SUCKS. I...

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NIAW '19

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NIAW '19

It's National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW) again and this year's theme is #infertilityuncovered  #NIAW19 So, let’s get uncomfortable. Let's talk about the #1in8 couples who are diagnosed with infertility. Last year I focused on the facts, this year I’m focusing on me. No sugar-coating here, so buckle up. In case you missed it, or need a refresher here's part 1: My first facebook post about our struggle This week also means it has now been over *4.5 YEARS* since Chad and I started trying to start a family. To some people, that may seem ridiculously long, but to others, that's just the tip of...

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T is for...

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T is for...

Tomorrow is my birthday. My 30th birthday. T is for thirty. It would also have been our due date if the May 22nd transfer would have worked. It might be a little rough. I'm not really looking forward to it. I planned on having a toddler by the time I was thirty. Instead, I'm still waiting. Impatiently waiting...as much as I try...patience is a virtue, and I seem to be running low on that one lately. We're going out for dinner, with our neighbors. To a fancy restaurant. Where I will eat. And drink. Possibly a lot. I'm pretty sure I'm...

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R is for...

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R is for...

My sister in law committed suicide on September 29th. It's been a lot. A lot of changes. A lot of emotions. A lot of resent. R is for resent. She left FOUR children behind. A 14 year old boy (P). An 8 year old girl (B). Both from previous relationships, but still my family. She and my brother had two children together. My sweet, sassy, cuddly nephews. One celebrated their 2nd birthday 1 week after her passing (L). The other, less than 18 months older, is now 3.5 (G). She had her demons—don't we all. She struggled with substance abuse. Kratom....

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H is for...

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H is for...

How did we get here. H is for Hell. The period from Hell.  AF has shown her face, and boy is she pissed. Cramps, back pain, PMS like you wouldn't believe. Poor Chad... I want to curl up in bed with the heating pad and the cat, but I have orders to fill. Ugh. At least this gets us one step closer to - well, whatever our next step is. We go in on the 18th to find out. Wish us luck, we need it.  

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