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Inconceivable — Baby Dragon

Hopes and Dreams

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Hopes and Dreams

Today was our due date. July has been rough. What should have been a happy month, where we finally got to meet our sweet bundle of joy, ended with a harsh reminder that they're gone. On top of all that, we had another embryo transfer. The date 7.14.21 -surely- had to be a sign, with 7 being my lucky number. With beta 10ish days later, we were hoping for some good news, just in time. We got it. On Wednesday the 21st, my home test showed two lines. With a plan to start blood thinner injections before discontinuing the steroid,...

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Salt in the wound (and on the rim)

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I would like to take a minute to say thank you to everyone who has supported Chad and me over the past few months. Thank you for reaching out. Thank you for the love, the kind words, the hugs (both virtual and in person), the cards, the flowers & plants, and possibly my favorite, the margarita delivery. It’s been a rough time for both of us, and while I can’t speak on Chad’s behalf, I can tell you about me. I’ve had days where I couldn’t get out of bed. Days where I watched Netflix through multiple “are you still...

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Let's talk numbers...

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On November 18th, 2020, 6 days after our 3rd FET, I saw my first ever positive pregnancy test (okay, let's be real, I took 6)

On November 21st, we got our first ever positive beta hCG results of 571, followed by another positive of 938, followed by another of 4089

On December 29th, the last measurement she took was the heartbeat.
A flatline.

For 41 days, Chad and I were going to be parents.
For 41 days, 2020 was good.

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L is for...

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L is for...

I had my Endometrial Receptivity Array (ERA) done today. For those of you who don't know what that is, hold tight, I will explain in a minute, but I still need to tell you what L stands for. Today, L is for Lobster. So the ERA: This is the same procedure as the "scratch", which *may* aid in implantation ... but the sample is sent for testing instead of being discarded. When I had the scratch done leading up to my 2nd transfer, they had to clamp my cervix because apparently, it moves too. Who knew? This resulted in me almost succeeding in breaking...

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W is for...

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W is for...

Today I had my first ultrasound in almost a year. Well, except for the emergency room visit. W is for Wanda. Everyone's favorite friend. Dr. B was running a little late. Darn those other women and their eggs. I remember my Nurse Coordinator telling me that ovaries don't know what day it is (about working holidays). Apparently they don't know what time it is either... So I waited. Half naked. Covered by an over-sized paper napkin. Just me and the ultrasound machine. Wanda. Should I play with her? Roll the giant track ball around a bit?  Would they know? I mean,...

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