Inconceivable
F is for...
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Hmm, it seems we are back where we started. Let’s recap, and then check some facts, and see if anything has changed. F is for fertility, which according to the dictionary means “the quality of being fertile; the ability to conceive children or young” …so basically, being able to become pregnant and deliver a baby. The flipside of which is, being infertile, or “being unable to reproduce” … so yes, opposites. Do they attract? Or do birds of a feather flock together? The world may never know. What I do know, after personal experience and a ‘lil interwebs magic, is that infertility SUCKS. I...
Hopes and Dreams
Baby Dragon Beta Day Chemical Pregnancy Embryo Transfer Fertility In Vitro Infertility IVF Miscarriage MyInfertilityStory Negative Prayer Real Life Update
Today was our due date. July has been rough. What should have been a happy month, where we finally got to meet our sweet bundle of joy, ended with a harsh reminder that they're gone. On top of all that, we had another embryo transfer. The date 7.14.21 -surely- had to be a sign, with 7 being my lucky number. With beta 10ish days later, we were hoping for some good news, just in time. We got it. On Wednesday the 21st, my home test showed two lines. With a plan to start blood thinner injections before discontinuing the steroid,...
Salt in the wound (and on the rim)
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I would like to take a minute to say thank you to everyone who has supported Chad and me over the past few months. Thank you for reaching out. Thank you for the love, the kind words, the hugs (both virtual and in person), the cards, the flowers & plants, and possibly my favorite, the margarita delivery. It’s been a rough time for both of us, and while I can’t speak on Chad’s behalf, I can tell you about me. I’ve had days where I couldn’t get out of bed. Days where I watched Netflix through multiple “are you still...
Let's talk numbers...
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On November 18th, 2020, 6 days after our 3rd FET, I saw my first ever positive pregnancy test (okay, let's be real, I took 6)
On November 21st, we got our first ever positive beta hCG results of 571, followed by another positive of 938, followed by another of 4089
On December 29th, the last measurement she took was the heartbeat.
A flatline.
For 41 days, Chad and I were going to be parents.
For 41 days, 2020 was good.
P is for...
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Well, it's National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW) again. #NIAW2020 This year's theme is #MyInfertilityStory Buckle up folks, it may be a bumpy ride. I had some tequila (and tacos, always tacos) and I'm a little tipsy and feeling all the feels. I've shared my story with you all over the last few years. In case you need a refresher 2018 - Flip the Script 2019 - Infertility Uncovered It hasn't been easy, but neither has the journey. It hasn't been fast either. It's been a lot of hurry up and wait. Wait for a period. Wait for a procedure. Wait until...