Turning my storm into someone else's rainbow
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Inconceivable — Real Life

Salt in the wound (and on the rim)

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I would like to take a minute to say thank you to everyone who has supported Chad and me over the past few months. Thank you for reaching out. Thank you for the love, the kind words, the hugs (both virtual and in person), the cards, the flowers & plants, and possibly my favorite, the margarita delivery. It’s been a rough time for both of us, and while I can’t speak on Chad’s behalf, I can tell you about me. I’ve had days where I couldn’t get out of bed. Days where I watched Netflix through multiple “are you still...

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Let's talk numbers...

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On November 18th, 2020, 6 days after our 3rd FET, I saw my first ever positive pregnancy test (okay, let's be real, I took 6)

On November 21st, we got our first ever positive beta hCG results of 571, followed by another positive of 938, followed by another of 4089

On December 29th, the last measurement she took was the heartbeat.
A flatline.

For 41 days, Chad and I were going to be parents.
For 41 days, 2020 was good.

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P is for...

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P is for...

Well, it's National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW) again. #NIAW2020 This year's theme is #MyInfertilityStory Buckle up folks, it may be a bumpy ride. I had some tequila (and tacos, always tacos) and I'm a little tipsy and feeling all the feels. I've shared my story with you all over the last few years. In case you need a refresher 2018 - Flip the Script 2019 - Infertility Uncovered It hasn't been easy, but neither has the journey. It hasn't been fast either. It's been a lot of hurry up and wait. Wait for a period. Wait for a procedure. Wait until...

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S is for...

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S is for...

Yesterday was Mother's Day here in the US. It was hard. Shitty even. S is for shitty.  You'll get the pun in a few. Also, this post is not censored for profanity. I let it fly freely. It started off like any other family gathering day. Well, after I could rally myself to get out of bed. I'd much prefer to just lay there with Tallie. Wake up, eat breakfast, down some coffee, start (or finish) whatever dish I was tasked with taking. This year was dessert - cupcakes for everyone! ...Then I wished a group of fellow IVF'ers (most with...

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NIAW '19

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NIAW '19

It's National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW) again and this year's theme is #infertilityuncovered  #NIAW19 So, let’s get uncomfortable. Let's talk about the #1in8 couples who are diagnosed with infertility. Last year I focused on the facts, this year I’m focusing on me. No sugar-coating here, so buckle up. In case you missed it, or need a refresher here's part 1: My first facebook post about our struggle This week also means it has now been over *4.5 YEARS* since Chad and I started trying to start a family. To some people, that may seem ridiculously long, but to others, that's just the tip of...

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