Inconceivable — IVF

Today I contacted my Nurse Coordinator to let her know our break would be longer than we originally planned. W is for waiting. I've had my nephews quite a bit since the end of September. My brother works full time, and although the 3.5 year old (G) is in preschool, it's only 2x a week, for about 3 hours each time. My mom (Grandma) has both kids pretty much full time, so I've stepped in to help as much as I can. The 2 year old (L) is getting smarter each day, and along with that comes the sass and defiance,...

ORM seems to be having some communication issues, and our cycle has been cancelled due to us receiving contradicting information from one person to the next. D is for dropping the ball. Chad and I have sent a letter to ORM stating there are several issues that need to be addressed and corrected before we are willing to move forward. Aside from those issues, I really just need a break, both physically and emotionally, from all of this. The rest of this year will be IVF-stress free (if only it could be Etsy-stress free as well), and we will start over...

We had a bit of a scare on Saturday. Warning: Graphic post ahead S is for scary. . . . Since our last failed transfer (in May) I have only had one full menstrual cycle....in June. Before IVF, my cycle was like clockwork, every 29 days. I have been having spotting on and off for about the last month. Saturday afternoon I began experiencing abdominal pain, but only on the left side. It was stronger than normal cramps, and reminded me a bit of the ovarian cysts I have had rupture in the past, but not as bad. I had some...

We got our schedule! C is for calendar. If all goes well, we will begin stims on September 14th, and egg retrieval #2 could be as soon as September 23rd! What does this mean for Vegas? Well, I can still drink, I just need to choose less sugary/carby options, which I can do...I did it last year when I went with my Mom. 🤞 All goes as planned and we can get this show on the road!  

Beta day. Baffled. Buying 4 bottles of wine.  At 10 am I had my blood drawn to check my beta hCG level, as well as estradiol (estrogen) and progesterone. Around 1 pm, while at the grocery store, I logged in to my patient portal to check for results. There they were, staring back at me. <0.100 Negative. Again. I expected it, thanks to the home test I took when I woke up this morning...but it still hurts to have it confirmed. I headed to the snack aisle and stocked up on some sour patch kids and chips and queso. My phone rang....